• Acrylics on canvas
• Measurements canvas: 80 x 60 cm

After a stressful year with some bald spots on my head, I was happy when my hair grew back after a few weeks. But then my long hair started to fall out again. From that moment on it went very fast. Showering and washing my hair was the hardest for me. The pressure of the water made the hair fall out even faster. Fear, sadness, panic… I regularly sat in the bathtub after a shower, completely defeated. I had no idea if all my hair would fall out completely this time, I could only wait sadly…

At first I doubted whether I wanted to paint this image. It’s so symbolic of how I experienced that brief period of hair loss. Who would want such an intense image? Would I want to ‘hurling’ such a vulnerable image of myself into the world? I even felt a little shame. However, the urge to raise awareness of this disease has cleared my doubts. I also think it is important to spread the message that you can embrace negative and intense experiences in your life. By just daring to look at it. Let it be. It’s good the way it is. It was definitely confronting to paint this part of the Alopecia process, but also very therapeutic. I’ve literally been able to give it a place now.